i used to write all the time.

i just went through my posts from the last year. i haven't written a regular old post in awhile. ever since i started dating daniel. probably because i started falling for daniel before i was even allowed to, so blogging about it wouldn't be appropriate. 

i haven't been feeling awesome for the past..well, awhile and maybe it's because i haven't been writing. i mean i've been writing poetry- but i guess i need some nonsensical scribbles to keep me going.  

lets start with today- i did nothing. basically. i still work at ehs in manhattan & i have a job at victoria's secret. today was as joanna gleason would put it "just a day." 

i went to this workshop with her once and a student asked "how do you take the days where you feel like giving up?" 

she asked him a series of questions: "did you eat breakfast?" yes. "did you eat lunch?" yes. "did you eat dinner?" yes, eventually. "did someone say your name?" well, i assume when they called me into the audition, yes. "did someone touch you? or hug you?" i saw my friend at the audition and gave her a hug.

"well, my friend, then you had quite a day."

i think the security guard said my name, he accidentally called me emily at first.

and cheryl, the other security guard said my name outside, "melissa's the only one in love."

danny kissed me goodbye this morning. 

sigh. i want more day.