"ever since i started acting. I've become a terrible liar in real life. I don't wear a mask anymore. On purpose. I don't want to hide my true feelings. That's not fair to myself ( i crossed that out and wrote....) you, myself or the audience. I may say, "yeah that's fine." but if you really watch me, you'll see something different. the truth. people aren't used to seeing truth. they rather hear it. I want you to listen. look at me. feel. feel deeper than yesterday. feel what i feel...what i'm telling you with my body."
james was in a play, Fool For Love. I went to see it and the main actors were not connected to each other at all. Sure, there was yelling and over the top body movement. But I didn't feel anything. Not like what I felt watching "City Of God" the other day in Bob's class.
Then James came on the stage in between the two leads and he started defending himself only to come to a terrible realization. And there was yelling and he meant it. and I felt something. I didn't think or imagine this time though. It was weird. I just started feeling. really hard. I was so aware of the fact that my tears were welling up and I had some new sort of sensation within my body that it scared me. when i got scared, i think i accidently stopped myself. i had no idea where any of it came from. it was insane.
thats how i know james was good. i felt something.
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